Feverishly trying to conjure up some interesting aspects of my life has not only provoked an already generous headache into a grievous migraine - but also renewed an invigorated onslaught of depression.
I will not attempt to explain myself ever again, especially if/when prompted by the authorities...
The bugs outside my window told me to flush the meds down the toilet.
It's astonishing really, everything they've mentioned so far has ominously been revealed as truth. Needless to say, I carried out their instructions immediately and without question.
I've since grown quite fond of the nasal hemorrhages - particularly the dazzling, translucent orbs that usually accompany them...
There was however, a noticeable sense of urgency when we spoke last, an inescapable catastrophe would soon be upon us.
"No time for preparation. Hold steadfast, remain vigilant and hopeful."
Wish they could afford to be more specific. I suppose they didn't want to worry me.
Lately there is that undeniable, eerie feeling of being watched - when I'm sure everyone's asleep.
But hey, no more bad dreams. Can't sleep anymore.
Drinking heavily again. Once those dreaded 'Anonymous' meetings were signed off, I could not wait to take that worthless coin to the nearest receptacle and forever be rid of it. Eighty hours spent assuring those dregs I was not at all like them - I was a 'Court Order' and not dependent upon any substance whatsoever. They certainly were doubtful - though empathetic. C'est la vie. I honestly could not be bothered with anything other than the procurement of a refreshingly cold beverage.
Feeling so much better now that my community service is complete - I'm elated to say that I only have a five year probation to contend with. The restraining order is the least of my problems - they've changed their names and moved away somewhere.
No one will be my friend regardless of how much I threaten them.
I'm constantly reminded of the insignificance of this musing - my focus is much more needed for the increasingly bleak prospect of my survival. They didn't expect anyone to believe me anyway.
Correct again, these bugs are positively exceptional.